{"id":74044,"date":"2026-02-09T07:30:59","date_gmt":"2026-02-09T06:30:59","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/a-desk.org\/?p=74044"},"modified":"2026-02-04T11:44:16","modified_gmt":"2026-02-04T10:44:16","slug":"learning-in-proximity-touching-intimate-knowledge","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/a-desk.org\/en\/magazine\/learning-in-proximity-touching-intimate-knowledge\/","title":{"rendered":"Learning in Proximity \/ \/ Touching {intimate} knowledge"},"content":{"rendered":"

It is quotidian intimacy that forces us to realize the other as someone with whom we interact and have an impact upon; our acknowledgment of this connection represents the touch and its fruition. We do not create intimacy; it is there awaiting our recognition\u2026. [W]e are bound intimately to others whether we realize or acknowledge such connection. The touch is the sign without a language to make it legible to \u201cothers.\u201d <\/i>(Holland, 2012, p. 104)<\/p>\n

\u2026 leaning into nonseparable life. It\u2019s about being able to respond to modes of life that do not necessarily conform to the ocularcentrism and linearity of whiteness; being able to feel the presence of alternative temporalities in the flesh, to become vulnerable to the complexity of life and breath. <\/i>(Le-Phat Ho & Rose-Antoinette, 2017, para. 12)<\/p>\n

Even more immediately than other perceptual systems, it seems, the sense of touch makes nonsense out of any dualistic understanding of agency and passivity; to touch is always already to reach out, to fondle, to heft, to tap, or to unfold, and always also to understand other people or natural forces as having effectually done so before oneself, if only in the making of the textured object.\u00a0<\/i>(Sedgwick, 2003, p.14)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

In Touching Feeling<\/em>, Eve Sedgwick (2023) articulates that the book holds an intuition that a particular intimacy subsists between textures and emotions; yet the same double meaning of the tactile plus the emotional is already present in the single word touching<\/em>, just as it is internal to the word feeling<\/em>. Sedgwick draws us into the implication that even to speak about affect \u201cvirtually amounts to cutaneous contact\u201d (Sedgwick, 2003, p. 17). Her words carry us over a textured, layered field \/\/ landscape \/\/ zone of touch that implicates both the physical and the intangible elements of living and learning in proximity. Touch and intimacy are saturated with sensorial, political, and emotional information. Experiences touch us \/\/ our presence touches others.<\/p>\n

If the multiplicity of touch, in corporeal tactility and immaterial potential, brings us to both the skin \/\/ the flesh \/\/ the meat of a subject, and simultaneously beyond it \u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026 what does this offer us when thinking about the palpability of race and its material and symbolic imprints?<\/p>\n

Can we understand our knowledge of race and its touching as, what Sedgwick refers, a textured object?<\/p>\n

What if we thought of whiteness itself as a textured object; something felt, accumulated, yet malleable and extended {far} beyond the boundary of the skin; one that shifts and shapes how we learn in proximity with all \/\/ other forms of life?<\/p>\n

In 2015, as an effort to examine how race operates intimately in my life, I conducted The Touch Project<\/em>. Over the course of two weeks, I textually and visually recorded every instance of touch I encountered. Staying present to how I used my body in contact with others, I documented my experiences: from being squished against strangers on the bus, to hands brushing mine in noticeable ways, to full-body hugs; from moments of repulsion\u2014touch unavoidable \/\/ unwanted, to desires where touch was not permitted. I counted touching 31 individuals, including non-human beings I also came into contact with. In addition to these 31, there were five instances when I wanted to touch someone but could not, due to restrictions or circumstances. Of these 36 instances, I was able to photograph 13.<\/p>\n

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Shara<\/p><\/div>\n

Attending to how my own body \/\/ a white female body reacted to and impacted the bodies and beings I touched, revealed just how difficult racial matter can be to grasp.<\/p>\n

Knowledge-making is a non-liner process, one that unfolds through understanding ourselves in connection to what we brush up against \/\/ the locations we move in and out of. And within this, developing an intimate understanding of and with the body does not stop at the edge of the skin; \u201cour body is like a shore: a mutable surface of exchange with a shifting boundary of interior and exterior, here and not yet arrived\u201d (Maule-O\u2019Brien, 2021, p. 128).<\/p>\n

The images I took brought into relief pieces of my own constructed and embodied knowledge. They conveyed how touch and race operate as multisensorial experiences in the body, layered with memories and belief systems. Touch encompasses both violence and empathy at once as it \u201ccarries a message about the immediate present, the possible future, and the problematic past \u2026 [as it] crosses boundaries, in fact and imagination\u201d (Holland, 2012, p. 100). Race and racism are historically produced through labor and economy, and continue to shape our lives through enduring structures. Within touch, race can be fluid and nuanced, yet the implications are deeply seated \/\/ the imprint never absent.<\/p>\n

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Erika<\/p><\/div>\n

Though more than 10 years have passed since doing this autotheory research, I regularly (re)turn to the body of work and the embodied learning rendered in the process. The photos offer moments of my body in relation \/\/ a site to process emotive responses, shifting memories of conversations, and imagings of otherwise. They make visible the whiteness I hold, and with it its bloated histories and presence of control and terror. The images function as markers of intangible affect and trace invisible forces that impede, and restrict \u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026 simultaneously, illustrating how structural rules of racial ordering can falter in intimate encounters, especially when actively challenged. The narrow framing of hands or segments of the body confront racial touching \/\/ obscure racial lines and deny access to the ocular identity categories we rely on. So while race and racism shape our lives materially, they also depend on our trust in difference and disconnect (Holland, 2012). Our relational lives can shift and take alternate forms. \/\/ But is it not, at least in part, my whiteness that permits the act of an imagined erasure of race in my reading of the photos?<\/p>\n

For those of us who teach within institutions, the classroom is a space we enter with students as co-learners; our lives come into contact. The embodied body is not singular; embodied pedagogies are communal, entangled, and layered meetings that move us toward (an)other(s). As an educator, I\u2019m committed to critical and embodied pedagogies of transformation that transgress \/\/ intervene \/\/ puncture normative and restrictive forms of knowledge creation. My desire is to generate catalysis \/\/ to open space for the non-verbal dimensions of learning \/\/ to teach of the inseparability of life.<\/p>\n

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Mark<\/p><\/div>\n

The Touch Project<\/em> functions as an example of textured knowledge in proximity, foregrounding how our bodies are entangled with racial meaning and consequences. It demonstrates both intimacy making as a pedagogical tool and how the site of the intimate is one of embodied knowledge formation. In the project, the notion of intimacy extends beyond traditional relational definitions between people to include intimacy with ideas, objects, and non-human beings\u2014encounters that are complex, sometimes conflictual, always rubbing up against our socially produced understanding of connection, belonging, and the self.<\/p>\n

The use of intimacy in a critical \/\/ transformative pedagogical practice invites a touching and feeling of the textured boundaries we navigate living in this shared world. Sara Ahmed (2004) states this requires considering \u201cthe intimacy between\u201d the embodied privileges we hold and the work we do. To confront \/\/ turn towards this \u201cintimacy between\u201d our lived realities and our pedagogy as a site of encounter and then to teach from this space is a durational \/\/ never finished process \/\/ one that is integral to not only race work, but for all social shifts.<\/p>\n

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Cuzmo<\/p><\/div>\n

This is work of exposure \/\/ of touch \/\/ of feeling. It requires us to inhabit critique at length and to remain in what Ahmed (2004) calls an unfinished present<\/em>. It is to develop an intimacy with a collapsing of time, where the sharp edges of colonial pasts pierce our contemporary lives, but where we may mend them to produce a different future.<\/p>\n

Ahmed (2004) sees this facing of responsibility and accountability as a part of reparative work \/\/ moving our bodies in a \u201cdouble turn.\u201d She illustrates this as first turning towards the critique of whiteness and its implications, but to then turn again toward the other to face the intimate responsibility. Within this action she reads a potential for clearing some ground for alternative relational lives to emerge. I understand the double turn as a moment to linger in \u201cthe intimacy between\u201d \/\/ to exercise deliberate vulnerability \/\/ to evoke an intimate learning through the knowledge we gain during exposure. Like the Touch Project<\/em>, it is an embodied gesture to return to continually, repeating the double turn towards our self and then the other, and back again, and again. Each time something new unearthed \/\/ sensed \/\/ touched \/\/ felt \/\/ embodied.<\/p>\n

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Yoga<\/p><\/div>\n

References<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ahmed, S. (2004). Declarations of Whiteness: The Non-Performativity of Anti-Racism. Borderlands e-Journal, 3<\/em>(2).<\/p>\n

Holland, S. P. (2012). The erotic life of racism<\/em>. Duke University Press.<\/p>\n

Le-Phat Ho, S., & Rose-Antoinette, R. (2017, Fall). Intimating our ghosts [Editorial]. MICE Magazine <\/em>(3): Ghost Intimacies<\/em>. https:\/\/micemagazine.ca\/issue-three\/issue-03-editorial-ghost-intimacies<\/a><\/p>\n

Maule-O\u2019Brien, S. N. (2021). Intimate pedagogy: Visual explorations of race and the erotic<\/em> (Doctoral dissertation). York University. http:\/\/hdl.handle.net\/10315\/38657<\/p>\n

Sedgwick, E. K. (2003). Touching feeling: Affect, pedagogy, performativity<\/em>. Duke University Press.<\/p>\n

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[All the images are part of “The Touch Project”, by Skye Maule-O’Brien]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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